dunch feel lyk posting.. haish feel being ignored.. very lonely.. haha..
wa enjoyed alot, jus cum bac frm vivo den rush to post lerx.. haha, cher promised tt if todae's dance performance well done den we go SWENSEN eat ice cream.. reali leis, pei xian lao shi sho...ooo gud.. we ordered 2 earthquake den 1 fondue lar.. gt alot flavours- coconut, sticky chewy chocolate, butterscotch, chococolate freakles, mint, macadamia olso.. but i reali AC wan.. eat abit oni.. haha, nt lyd dey all crazy, all cravin fer ice- cream de.. +)) gt 2 chocolate partner, wen yan nd rou jin.. everyone ish lyd didnt care abt their image.. kekes..de fun ting ish dey keep mixing de ice cream[other grp de, yi jia, don, wan qun nd a sec3 de] all was pretty nd shuai ge aft wearin cap, putting make up, glitters on our face.. dey put eye liner sia, SUPER DUPER thick.. all sho ai shui wan.. zi lian.. haha, mayb nxt year settin up a smalli dance grp, fer events. mayb vesak dae ba!! todae went vivo den on mrt, kinda of keep lookin fer shuai ge.. haha, serious.. x)) bein e MC too, i nd wen yan keep gigglin la den was quite audible, den kana by shi fu.. sorry leis.. everyone 's hands stack together nd whooosh.. gud luck fer de dance!!!!! its raining.....
yepee ytd watch de 4th muvee in muylife, wid michelle, 4jokers around- clement, tenghoi, chon beng nd xuan le at orchard, cineleisure.. waited chon beng fer 1/2 hr plus.. FINE.. haha. we took e 0105 tym slot [OPEN SEASON].. it ist kinda of kiddi show but stil enjoyable, 6.50 per ticket.. actuali decided to watch HAPPY FEET but dere was oni 1tym slot which ist screened at 0955.. grr.. nite tym!! fer e story ist abt a grizzly bear, he was a wild bear but was protected by a lady wearing shorts frm de open season when all hunters go out to prey**.. in e middle of de nite it sneaked out wid his "buddy" a goat maybe, he saved!! as e lady feels tt she couldnt control it she sent it bac to e jungle..it made new fren as it tried to get hme+)) we went window-shoppin frm one storey to another.. de place was kinda quiet.. haha, e guys wanted to go to e shop which sell games???!! no idea.. on de way we went into takashimaya wid our ice-cream.. oo.. michelle brought mii to a bookstore where iuu rr able to find all kinds of bk!! c0ol.. she introduce mi to a horoscope bk which tells iuu abt ur future occupation, family nd relationship.. it was quite true.. de guy mich lyk was actuali one of de character in a japanese show i watched!!!! we gt de same topic.. i bought a winnie e poh cup nd get to try some food mich introduced.. i was nearli drooling.. wahaha.. mich was habin dinner dere so i went bac wid e guys.. damm fun><
yeah 2 posts at a dae.. haha gotta to mak it short nd sweet cos ltr muy bro cum bac den zzzz..zzzzzzzz laio.. haha, selfish ma..+) 2dae de rehearsal was kinda of cool sia, 1100 reach temple den practice wid wyan 1st den all cum ltr on.. wa laus late lor dey.. jokin larx.. we managed to get everytong in mind.. pei qi was here widd her bf.. kakaka.. she ist sho strict wid us la but she ish sho cheo nd gud.. POWERFUL!! become de MC was nt a easy job, e mike was weak sho beri soft.. haix sad, disappointment..+( we were sweatin lyk siao aft de dance, our item was de 4th one.. bbe continue..
hiie i m bac.. sowie i mean aft two daes i last post.. lolx+) 2sae wil be e FULL DRESS rehearsal dae, kind of mak mii shiver.. cos dere ist too much to learnt, learnt e steps oready but plus e formation wil be kinda of messy.. yesterdae, when pei xian lao shi n her frenx, pamy, pei qi( de chorographer fer de 1st part of de dance), one more lady nd pei qi's bf.. we were lyk sudddenly brain block lor.. de even sadder ting was, one of de dancers retreated, she said she ist nt joinin us le, haix yy?? no idea.... de dancers include- wenyan(chorographer), roujin( beri cutie wan), chin yi( smth troubled her, her mood ist affected currently, sad lar) wanqun( senior,sec3), ruiyi( cheo bu sia), +2guys, yi jie( shuai ba nd di siaox de), lastly don( plae plae plae).. haha+).. we hab to cherish our rehearsal fer todae.. jia you, wish tt i could rmb everyting can..

ps: to muy frens out dere, ya honestly i m veri upset over e past but i m tryin hard.. harder.. hardest to enjoy muy life.. be dere to hear mii sae ' i made it ' one dae.. dun pang seh wors.. gif mii tym, i can.. dere ist smt which strengthen mi de determination..
be grateful to de people hu decieve iuu as dey deepen ur insight,
be graeful to de people hu hab hurt iuu as dey strengthen ur determination,
be grateful to de people hu hab left iuu as dey mak iuu strong..
[ alot more but i forgotten ]..
failure gal here.. wahaha, todae went sheng siong eat, shop n bought a gummi lunch set.. wa nice but cant finish inside gt french fries, pizza, 2pepsi, 2 hamburgar n hotdog bread.. kekes+) n0 mood lar seriousli, olso nth to post todae, sad to sae.. i lyd de song sing by milk de call' qingtingdianshui'.. anyone can bluetooth to mi?? or wu ke qun de' canfei'.. sho emo de song, rang wo liu lei.. sho ba.. tmr goin dance practice again den stil mus try sing songs wid de guitar tune fer graduation wan, bein de MC.. all rre invited to bbe dere.. jia you..



shou dao le da ji
im sowie tat i actuali kicked muy bro hard as he secretly used e nokia70.. he jus wanted to plae wid it but i was too selfish. i oni allowed muyself to touch it... i was too harsh, i was selfish.. wadd a sis i was??!! im a failure.. i hab no excuses but to apologise..
dis holidae i experience alot, workin part time den quit, sianx.. ended relationship, camp, muy careferr livin of life thrul e holidae.. de ending of it bothered mi alot.. it has become de cause of muy change, im nt behavin lyk muyself, de gal i m last tym.. anyone feel it?? puttin an act in front but deep inside i felt helpless, lonely.. nt knowin how shld i react to de prob.. wadd was de best solution? tall mii.... i can oni blame muyself fer all had happened.. i hate wad i m now, yearnin ppl's sympathy??!! im daydeamin, it ist tym fer mi to stand up again.. i wil bbe hu i m.. no fear nd to carry on.. i wish i could.. reali +)
fucko veri fam lar... ransacked e whole hse but stil cant find muy math tb.. wa laus, hw nd ws rre inside de leis.. sianx muy x...... camster left mii cho look fer food.. pai seh lar i was watchin e news den neglected it oni fer awhile ma???!!! dance- lookin ferward to de practice, went chinatown to shop fer clothes, raining heavily lorx.. DRENCHED.. grrr.. 2dae wrap muy bks, pent abt 2hrs ba olso watchin tv ma sho de speed ist lyk slo..w.. ya but at least it ish neatly done.. +) e trip to malaysia ish gettin nearer, hapi bahs.. muy bros de brothers olso cumin along worx, interestin ritx... mus tidy up de hse 1st leis dey steady de ma.. mood swing.. wahaha, sleepy sia.. dere ist alot tings kept in here-->
zzzzzzzzz........ at hme sho sianx but luckily gt e NOKIA70 fer mii to spend muy tym quicklt.. spend every second starin at de fone.. whoo, a game called camster, cute ritx hab mine own pets!!!
names
1: ruby
2: doggies
3:x.. ...
4: re.... [ yeah]
dey hab slowly elvolve to lvl 5 n each hab deir gem to trade wid others.. wahaha, mus either pet it, slap it when its tinnkin of relievin itself n pickup it at a spot to another.. fer feedin, iu gonna tak real pix den it wil bbe in de progress of extracting.. de older it ish, de more often it will pool around..


i olso gt revise muy work, jus feel lyt preparing muyself abit fer nxt year which ish hell lyt..
continue chiong fer 2dae, but goin out all dae... purchase costumes.. +)
haix lost e chance cho work liao cos i chose to go malaysia fer a holidae wid famili nd visit muy ah gong located at kampar lar.. life ist full of decisions nd i abandon de opportunity to work but i was strugglin la.. haix i wann work leis.. sianx, bought e concession den nw tell miie nt workin, how m i goin cho spend de moni in it.. wa seh.. yy cant dey jus let mii work leis, dun apologise to mii its muy fault to bbe a malaysian nd hab to g0 bac lar... O_O
yeah annually de CHARITY FUNFAIR has successfulli ended.. 2dae was sho damm busy lo, SLACKIN abit lar.. wahaha, i plus muy za bo fren- wen yan, we were under sec1s e in charge.. a game called e peach pond, nd our duty was cho be de guardian angel fer de peach.. erms ~~ awhile ltr we were asked cho help out at de stal where sell cultural stuffs, paintin by our own cher, sum pottery.. wa shout shout shout lyk siao kia but sho fun.. haix abit down kan bu dao xin wei..haha. once a year see once de guy lorx.. hehe, but in e late noon finali saw himm, was lyk sho shocked sia.. +) gao xing.. i wanna tak his foto de but pai seh, plus he wid his buddies- wei xiang, ronald, wei liang, kingsley stil gt other bois la.. den change cho sell balloons.. wa cute lor, managed to produce a doggy as muy 1st product.. proud sia.. e grp of guys keep di siaox n lookin around bein e sort of corodinator!!! went dance nd da bao lots of food,
went hme rest den.. i wan see xin...
to chee (:
heys gurl...jus wan euu to noe i really understand how euu feel..since tt very dae..
but euu mus be strong
i noe it's beri sad...it's jus like a part of euu ish missing isn't it?
euu noe it's reality...in fact euu noe ALOT OF UNHAPPY THINGS....euu jus sometimes wish euu neber knew anything...well at least tt's how i feel..but i still understand how euu feel...
mus be jian qiang...ying wei ni hai you wo men zhe xie peng you ((:
see euu mii gd fren being sad reminds me of derr past[of mii own past]...how i cried becuz of a guy..who did not deserve anything..mus be mii eyes pa stamp to like him bahx....
dun worry...euu'll meet a better person in life later on....i'm sure he'll be glad to find euu too....i believe God made a special him/her ferr euu & me and it's jus a matter of time before we find tis person...den we'll be living our lives happily...without sorrow or sadness...
jia you...wo men dou hui zhi chi ni de =]

`feli lao po <3
eww.. im posting fer wad happened 2daes bbfor.. i was on muy way hme aft muy dance practice.. i feel a surge of loneliness.. suddnely i felt tat noone cared fer mi, i m bein alone!! i was afraid of dark, i cycled faster.. while reachin a slope n tuning to muy fav song, i nearli cried.. i felt beri down.. all were lies, i m unable to put down muy feelings fer himm.. how i wish everyting was dead, a dead has no feelings.. it can't hurt mii, oni i m allowed.. i can reject himm, even abandoned but nt to a livin ting- human.. i wish to blame him fer givin mii everyting n ltr end it??!! i wan to put himm aside, i cnt stay dellude.. i yearn to bbe enlighten n live well!! i m silly, pls blame mi